Busy Weeks!! :s

Been real busy with work lately! And I feel like I have no life...since I work from Monday to Sunday...like what the fuck!! And working in a fucked up place make those issues I battle with myself worse! I just have another 11 weeks to go. I hope nothing bad happens. I have been a prisoner to the society...It hurts real bad when I can't express myself and be myself. I live in the setting where I lie to myself so much...I don't know what to do. Being 'stuck' make me go crazy and I cannot my emotions anymore. I am strong and still rely on hope... ;)

When???

Life sucks! Love hurts! But both life and love are beautiful!! hehe! I love my life! All I need is time...Time to heal and time to be myself with the man I want...Not sure when, but the time will come. ;)

New Light

There is a new light in my life now. I was in the wilderness for a moment. I was too afraid, insecure and worried to death about my life. Life is really complicated and being gay is even more complicated. I do not know what I want. Whether he is a man? or a boy? I have no idea. I do not know whether I will be with him for 1 year or 3 years or 10 years. But I could try. Life is all about trying new things. Though gay people know that eventually they would break up, then why get into relationships? Strange! We all have innate urges and certain forces that can't be explain. Just like Love which is the force of nature. I had Anuar for 3 years but eventually broke up, then Kenny for 1.3 years and broke up. Sigh. I hope things go well now for me and my little baby boy. I really would like to know him more. It would take a long period of time. Just let time and nature decide for us both.

Regards,

Joaquin missing his Sweet Apple Pie ;)

Blasting Silvester 2010!

New Year is called Silvester in Deutsch (German), and I had a blasting one!! It was also a farewell to my little Nippon brother Kazuma Abe. He flies to Narita on January 4th, 2010 completing his one year stay in Malaysia. Hope he learned something while he stayed here especially on how people live lives in other parts of the world, culture, religion etc.

Kazuma as usual, a little drunk over there with Michaela

A Christmas without Snow

As how Michaela described, as 'Christmas without Snow'. We're in Malaysia and we never had snow. So, she said that it is weird to celebrate Christmas in summer heat! Haha! Christmas was fun! Had blasting party with my exchange students especially with silly Kazuma Abe. ;)



Kazuma did his first sushi in his life! Well, I tasted not that bad though he had some smackings from my mom while doing them...haha!



Okay, this is not what you think! I am asleep even before I drank that wine. Kazuma posed the wine bottle next to me. I'm innocent! ;)




Asahi! A Japanese branded beer, was a Christmas gift from Kazuma to me. We had so much of it in Cambodia and got a little drunk! Haha! It was just USD1 in Cambodia per can. But the bottle is more expensive here in Malaysia.